Ugh ** this may be a downer

This pregnancy has been quite the roller coaster ride so far. From the minute I was pregnant I've been sick. Though, at the time I didn't know it...I contributed all the nausea to the meds I was on for my "sinus infection" and root canal... now at 10 1/2 weeks it hasn't eased up. My meds got switched to generic and I can feel a total difference. They don't work! I still do not have morning sickness but beginning around 11am I'm sick...and then it continues off and on throughout the rest of the day.

Svend just started a new rotation. For the next two weeks he has to leave the house at 3:45AM and doesn't get home til around 8PM. He even works Saturdays (and one Sunday). AHHH! Yesterday I sat on the couch from Noon til 8 trying to control my nausea, watching the kids run around, zero clean dishes, piles of everything everywhere, movies on all day...I think Tabitha ate a nutrigrain bar and cheese stick for dinner. Luckly when Svend got home he was prepared for the mayhem (it helped that I was in tears) and ended up making himself some dinner then made extra for the kids dinner tonight.

I've been running/exercising in the mornings since I'm not sick then... after yesterday I decided to forgo that and see if "taking it easy" might help with the "later-in-the-day-sickness"...it didn't. So, I'm still going to exercise--especially if it makes no difference in the end result.

Since Svend's hours have changed, I am THE coach for the next two weeks of soccer...fun. And, I'm THE swim lesson parent for Tabitha and Bergen for the next two weeks. This is not working out. Luckly, I've been blessed to be able to somewhat control my composure and nausea when i'm in the presence of others. I've always been good at that when I'm sick. I think it's an embarrassment thing for me. That's probably why I have to close my eyes when I'm in serious pain...so I can't see people looking at me and I can cry at will (like when giving birth!).

Anyways, that was a glimpse into my downer side. I'm frustrated and tired. But, this is my trial and my family choice. We will get through. The kids are trying hard. We all are. Svend hates that he can't help. He leaves in less than 4 weeks for his month long rotation and I'm really praying that our current situation isn't the "easy" part...though I know it is.

We are grateful for each of our children and the new life soon to join us. Without each of them we'd be heartbroken. We are all trying to be happy and optimistic. We (I) fall a lot but little things are bouying me up.

*today Tabitha was so frustrated b/c she really wanted to wear Bergen's underwear and couldn't get it on. I finally went up to her and put it over her diaper. She beamed. too funny.-spiderman buns!

*Bergen, though he has some new/nice clothes likes to dress himself. i'm happy for the "help" and encourage this freedom...however, he isists on dressing like a popper. yesterday he wore an old shirt inside out and today he's wearing old sweat pants that are total highwaters...I need to remember to hide those when he takes them off tonight! :)

*Tally is finally enjoying to read. She has refused to try for so long...but now with her teacher's help she's enjoying it. I'm enjoying it too!